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It's been a Long while....
I know I have not kept up with this blog... In my defense, my depression has had a GRIP on me. A lot has happened since my last post. A...
Oct 2, 2025


Getting on my OWN nerves!!
I know I need to be better about posting. Nobody is really reading this...but it helps me to word vomit. Especially since, I literally...
Mar 24, 2024


It's NEVER ENDING
I swear...I must be flat out garbage!!! My Karma must be horrendous!! I say this because the mess of my Life is NEVERENDING!!!.. No...
Mar 1, 2024


I have to be good to Myself
This past year has been one doozy of chaos, emotion, physical and mental turmoil. In all honesty, I wasn't sure I'd still be standing. ...
Nov 16, 2023


IT HAS FINALLY HAPPENED
I honestly just realized last week.... I still think of him almost daily...but it's FINALLY not hurting my spirit/heart. There has been a...
Nov 12, 2023


Outcast?
It's crazy how drastically one's life can change. Either, instantly or gradually...it can catch you by surprise once you realize how...
Sep 2, 2023


When will it End?...
It's crazy to me to realize that I haven't physically seen him since December. It doesn;t feel like it's been that long to me. The...
Aug 17, 2023


Pushing Forward
A lot has happened since my last post. I am not sure if I mentioned earlier that I ended up having to live in a domestic violence...
Aug 13, 2023


Lonely
It has been a long while since I've been able to login and vent. Once again, so many things have happened. I am currently residing in a...
May 18, 2023


Exhausted...
Is it wrong to feel so tired, EXHAUSTED....Is it weak?? I feel like a complete failure/loser... Why??... Because...I have made really...
Feb 17, 2023


Can you say..."Narcissist"
I know it has been a long while..."AGAIN', since I have posted. I only have myself to blame. I honestly can't remember the last time I...
Jan 17, 2023


Dang!!!....
Honestly???....I feel like the biggest FOOL and CRYBABY...A Generation X "child"...cuz...it sure does NOT seem I have gained any...
Jun 19, 2022


Missing Him Soooo Much....
My son was done dirty
May 6, 2022


Music = Healing....
Honestly....that title is TRUTH!!! I CANNOT imagine a day withOUT music. Especially, a day filled with heartache and turmoil....
May 5, 2022


It's for real............
It really, finally happened. It's really done. Everything imploded and just dissolved. I did the usual pitiful "me", and backstroked...
May 3, 2022


Strength?
As much as it is hurting me...I believe...I have no choice but to let go.. I am so tired of the freaking games. I am sick and tired of...
Apr 26, 2022


Guess it's time....
I guess it is time for acceptance...It's time to stop fooling myself and holding out for something that is NEVER GONNA HAPPEN... I mean,...
Apr 21, 2022


Just kinda bobbin' along
Am I the only that has or is feeling like you are just a blob? Like no clue as to why you exist? Especially, as you reflect on all the...
Apr 20, 2022


It's been a while....
In case you're wondering about that pic to the Left... the answer is ...Nope...not always...Unfortunately. And it really hurts when it...
Apr 19, 2022


Really?
I know it has been a while since I've posted...I apologize. The truth is...I have had a LOT thrown my way. I have had to deal with a...
Mar 9, 2021